A Day in a Life

15th September 2010

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HOW MANY UC STUDENTS DOES IT TAKE TO CHANGE A LIGHTBULB?

macnotcrap:

abe-ham:

juicyymellen:

itsmeseanwong:

ayeitssalyo:

jomeezie:

jimaye:

!brand0nle:

loweeen:

iamnotwong:

UCLA: One: She holds the bulb and the world revolves around her.

CAL: Seventy-six. One to change the light bulb, fifty to protest the light bulb’s right not to change, and twenty-five to hold a counter protest.

UCSD: Five. 1 to hold the bulb and 4 to start smoking weed until the room spins.

UCI: Eleven. 1 to change the bulb and ten to sit around watching because honestly, what else is there to do at Irvine past 10pm??

UCR: Three. 1 to steal the bulb, another to drive the getaway car, and the last to call all his friends to throw the celebration party on a Tuesday night.

UCSB: Seven. 1 to screw the bulb and 6 to screw each other.

UC Davis: Zero. There is no electricity in Davis.

UC Merced: Two. One to hold the bulb while the other calls his friend asking for help in figuring out this “new college thing.”

UCSC: None since they are living in the forest

smoking weed or sex? LOL

….so sad, cause it made me laugh at 5 in the bloody morning ‘cause Irvine’s is so true… T_T

3rd April 2010

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Peaceful

I’ve learned that you have to be mature with problems that break you down.  In this situation I finally got over my problem, and then my solution ditches me by being there for me anymore because ‘he’ can’t deal with a problem. 

It is all okay, but all I want is an explanation.  If I’m clingy, I swear I don’t know, so it would be nice to hear a “hey, sorry, but you’re getting a little too clingy and it’s bothering me, so can you try to fix this”. 

And honestly I thought you said we would still be ‘friends’, but you won’t even say “hi” to me anymore.  I knew it was kinda shady when you seemed secretive of your text with her, but I still fought myself to not pry.  Please next time, if you or anyone has a problem with something I do. Tell me, because otherwise I won’t know what I’m doing wrong.

I knew I was pressuring you more this week about communicating with me on the phone, but I guess I did that since I felt that there was something that was causing a strange vibe. I’m sorry for it, I didn’t think or mean to be that way.  You can do whatever you want with whoever you want.  Just please don’t leave me in the dark.  I know it was wrong to text you too much this past week…My fault

Talk to me when you feel it’s appropriate.  I’m down to earth and understanding.

3rd April 2010

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“Heated up…”

Doesn’t life suck when history repeats itself.

All I get is someone who cares about me for a month or a little longer.  They call everyday at least once, text or message me, video chat with friends, and more.  Then they change by not calling anymore or saying “I love you” or just random messages throughout the day. 

I guess Karma really hates me because no matter what I do I get hurt.  Even the best friend asks me why we don’t call anymore, or why we don’t 3-way oovoo with him.  I have no fucking idea.  I suppose it’s my fault. It always is my fault.  I at least want to know how it is my fault.  All I show is my care to the people I love.  Sorry if you don’t want that. 

Fucking 4th time this has happened to me.  I really wish I could stop caring but I can’t.  Enjoy your life and talk to me whenever you have time.  Have fun hanging with friends, and what not.  I should’ve known it was too good to be true…

23rd March 2010

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When the loneliness started..

Dear Tumblr…

Hello, my name is Caitlyn and I’m an 18 year old girl.  As I lived my life, I went through a lot of phases, I know a lot have it worse, but a lot have it better too.  I started off my in preschool with my first best friend, Jackie Shin.  We were hella close.  We were always at each other’s houses playing with each other(don’t say it -_-*).  When I was sick one day I didn’t go to school and she cried until the teachers had to call me to ask if I could come in and make her stop crying, so I did.  She gave me a lot of firsts.  A lot of fights, a lot of tears, lots of memories.  She taught me about boys, and about some makeup [I was a tomboy, I didn’t like that], she also taught me how to ride a bike :)

But as always life goes on, and in school, cliques were made and her new friends told her not to hang out with me because I wasn’t ‘cool’ to them.  They started rumors about me, and always ignored me, and slowly Jackie stopped seeing me, til now completely, we barely even say hi.  By the first grade I was always alone.  I had no close friends.  I would either be at school alone talking to the teachers, doing dare-devilish tricks like jumping off the playground at age 6, crying, or playing tennis with the high school boys. 

Then I made another best friend named Eleanor Yang, she never judged me or left me for others.  She was nice, popular, extremely smart, and a crazy ass dancer(she still is).  Apparently since she was my friend, others didn’t pick on me. She ended up having to leave me to move to San Diego with her parents =/

When she left, people started picking on me, playing some minor pranks on me. Telling my first crush, Nicholas Cvjetkovic, that I liked him.  I was teased, and kind of bullied…you know, how girls bully not with fighting but behind your backs saying a bunch of lies.  So I ended up getting in trouble and even had gum stuck in my hair which I had to cut. T_T

When I got out of Elementary, I was happy, but also sad cause I was going into a new school with no ‘good’ friends. just classmates and acquaintances.  After the first couple of weeks I got my first friend in a while. Jacqueline Ho. What a name XP.  We were close but still I had to play tennis and after school ended I’d have to go home alone until my parents got home at 6 or 7 pm.  I wasn’t allowed to sleep over at anyones house til Highschool actually..shocking..

“Even in a crowd of people, I feel so alone.”

I’d have to go home and usually my dad would yell at me for any little thing.  He’d always yell at me since I was in kindergarden.  I’d cry almost everyday because he yelled at me.  He usually said I wasn’t bright, or I’m not smart enough, I’m never going to get the career I want because I won’t get to a good college, and I won’t be worth anything in the future.  So many years of being alone and just being yelled at tore me from the inside out.  Most of my friends know that I can put up a really hard front if I needed to, but deep down inside, I’m super sensitive.  I always put my friends first, because I know how important they are to me now that I have good friends. I’m glad I have Stephanie Chen as my best friend along with close friends like Amy Christianto, Christine Chen, Wayne Lo and more.. I’m sorry I lost it with Christopher Garcia Castro…I’m trying to get it back. <3

I know I’m not perfect though.  I make mistakes, some small and some huge. I’m extremely sorry for that. I wish I can go back in time and fix everything, but sadly I can’t.  I never wanted to hurt people with my wrong decisions especially when my vision is clouded by anger and pain.  I’m only human… I love everyone in my life. EVERYONE.

This is just the beginning…There is so much more to live for and look forward to. I’m only 18, I’m still learning from my mistakes..Unfortunately I’m just 18 and there will be tons of more mistakes, but I hope there won’t be many more and if I have to deal with it, I’ll stay strong and work to overcome it.

Life is a battle, and you have to fight to get your goals your entire life, because in the end, everything will be worth it.

Love,

C.